“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”
― Albert Einstein
“A petty tyrant is a tormentor,” he replied. “Someone who either holds the power of life and death over warriors or simply annoys them to distraction.”
I very rarely discuss or go into detail in my life about specific events where I have been mental, emotional, verbally abused, and physically.
Currently, however, I feel it is vitally important to explain such an event and bring a perspective most never quite understand which means you can never innerstand.
My desire is to creatively bring my experience and knowledge to help others change their stories about abuse and how if they deal with it.
A redefining is necessary certainly for each person who is caught in the battery of others. Usually, the batterers are cowards, who need to dominate, control and we could say to keep someone enslaved but it is much more sinister than that regardless of the batterer or the batterie knows this. It is a battle over energy, vampirism of sorts. One person needing energy that he cannot get on his own, he feels that he is losing to another person whether this person is a baby, child, woman, another man, animal and he in his last attempt will dominate with what works best on the batterie. The dominator needs to drain the batterie and consume that energy into themselves, feeding off the life essence of another by assault. We can see this play out in issues like adrenochrome and children where they are beaten, assaulted, tortured, kidnapped, and right before the die of fright are drained of their blood and the adrenal tissues removed and dried for later consumption. Adrenochrome is a drug, the blood of the batterie consumed to create youth in the person who takes it.
There is what you may consider lesser and more extreme abuse and domination by the batterer or petty tyrant. However, let’s be clear NONE of it small or large should be taking place. We must redefine for our own self what we consider abuse, a line in the sand our personal boundary of where we take action and stand up for ourselves in whatever manner necessary. This is where our alarm, red light warning goes off in us and we bring ourselves to the present moment to notice what is taking place and preparing for battle not allowing our energy, life force to be drained out of us and consumed by another.
Years ago I was in therapy and one of the most important moments of that period is when the therapist asked me what abuse was? What does it look like? How does it happen to you? How has it been done to you? How did you react?
There were years in me of: do not tell anyone, no one will listen, do not speak unless spoken to, and visually seeing women around me abused regularly and being taught this is normal. At this point in the therapy, she asked me to go home and work on MY OWN personal definition of how I would define abuse. Took me months at 20 years old to come to a conclusion of the totality of everything abusive in me, around, what I have witnessed, heard, and allowed.
My definition, my red light warning, my line in the sand became this, “Anything that makes me feel less than a human being.” To this day there is a clear line for me where the action is necessary. I am going to briefly describe the event that happened and I am going to add the name/s, date, and locations of this event.
After doing some shamanism work after this event and weighing out the choices, I decided that I was not going to report the event to law enforcement because 1) they never actually do anything about it, 2) They end up turning it back on you and I am not about to give up a bunch more power and energy to this kind of nonsense. After a couple of days of pray, recovery, and healing, being open to using this as a stepping stone for others and also using this situation to not allow the players to get away with anything, bringing to light their darkness and behaviors. In case they ever do anything like this again to anyone else or have already this is documented in a way that it is known.
Bring the darkness into the light, I have learned this by being conjuncted by pluto on my sun. Pluto is constantly destroying to allow for the light to penetrate and expose. Remember that this is about you first and your inner workings, beliefs, feelings, events, memories that need to be brought out of the abyss we have placed them in. Once we can look at ourselves honestly even the bad, the ugly then and only then can we define words with new meanings for ourselves and stand up, confront and deal with them in the real-time present moment when our own inner alarm is set off.
Kelsey Sweet and I are going to be putting together a 12-month course on this kind of work, using the medicine wheel and the 4 directions with teachings, practices, and art therapy to help others redefine their own language and heal old trauma, reclaiming lost energy and power and freeing the self. If you are interested please contact me @ email@example.com please put in the subject line add me to the course. You will get an email a month before the first online class.
“The new seers, in accordance with their practice, saw fit to head their classification with the primal source of energy, the one and only ruler in the universe, and they called it simply the tyrant. The rest of the despots and authoritarians were found to be, naturally, infinitely below the category of a tyrant. Compared to the source of everything, the most fearsome, tyrannical men are buffoons; consequently, they were classified as petty tyrants, pinches tiranos.”
On my Birthday December 18, 2020, a man named (assaulter) Billy Dale Wellesley @2955 Lakeside drive #325 Reno, Nevada 89502 attacked me. Before I knew what was happening he grabbed me by the neck his thumb on the left side of my neck, after the first grab his eye shifted and there was excitement on his face as he leaned in closer to grab harder another deeper grab and bent me over backward over the kitchen sink. He then punched me while strangling me by the neck into my stomach and as I attempted to rotate away from him still holding me by the neck, he continued to punch into my back. Lastly, he still strangling me by the neck maneuvered me with a leash in hand that my dog was attached to out the door, he released his hand on my neck I was not clear of the door before he started slamming it on me as it crushed different parts of my body until I was outside the door and he slammed it shut.
Having keys to the unit I re-entered and an ever sicker moment when he realized that I was not going to allow him to steal my power or dominate me came over him and he ran towards me with open arms saying, “okay, now time to forgive”, I looked him in the eye and plainly stated with power, Do Not Touch Me and Get the Fuck Away from Me.
Meanwhile, his son had been there (accomplice) Billy John Wellesley his address 2955 Lakeside Drive #215 Reno, Nevada 89502. He was 3 feet away from his dad attacking me just watching like a baby preditor learning a skill from his predatory parent. Later when I asked the son why he did not help me, he said that “women need to be slapped around to be shut up”. I was shocked by this statement and upon questioning him further about such a statement he felt that it was the man’s job to slap, beat, harm, abuse a woman into submission, and to shut up.
I am leaving out details that are not important. The important facts here are no one should ever hit another person or animal, nothing, ever, period end of the story. A man should never attack anyone, especially someone smaller than themselves. Lastly, other men, people in the vicinity should not look on at such abuse taking place and should actively step in and stop it.
Until we change our world view and beliefs, change how we define words, change what we accept, and voluntarily participate in, then we can never personally change and we can never be free.
As a sovereign free being, I do not assume that the system is going to help me, it will not, in a sovereign system you handle things yourself and in the common law court of the republic through the USA constitution I would be allowed to call these men into question in the court, a jury of my peers, the people of my community would fill the court and would hear either side making a determination of facts. There would a righting of the wrong by fine or by deed. Since common law courts are few and far between as a sovereign free human being I cannot rely on the corporation system to help me. This is why I am writing this blog, to make sure that these men are known, that these men are not allowed to do such a thing again, and to make note of this event.
Billy Dale Wellesley (male) approximately 72 years of age and his son Billy John Wellesley (male) approximately 47 years of age Mother of Billy John Wellesley Mary (Joseph) Debord all living in the Reno area. Mary and her husband are international arms dealers: https://www.nnbw.com/news/machine-gun-factory-under-way/
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Putting choiceless awareness into practice requires that we not tune out our experience of attraction and aversion but tune them in even more deeply. Yogis discovered that if we can learn to train our awareness enough to acknowledge sensations as they arise, to experience them fully, and to bear them, then we can no longer be bound to the wheel of opposites. We are no longer whipped around by our conditioned responses to pleasure and pain. We can no longer be compelled to act unconsciously on the sensations.
Desire is not the problem. Attraction is not the problem. Aversion is not the problem. The problem is learning to live with the bare reality of the phenomenal world. The skillful means used in the yogic practice to explore this bare reality is called afflictions in the yogic view, witness consciousness is the primary skillful means for freeing us from our bondage to them. These are the six primary characteristics of the witness.
The witness does not choose for or against any aspect of reality. The witness does not split life into good or bad, right or wrong, high and low, or spiritual and not spiritual. The witness does not take the sides but experiences a kind of choiceless awareness.
The witness does not censor life. The witness allows all thoughts, feelings, and sensations to receive the light of awareness, without discriminating. There is absolutely nothing that the witness cannot see, feel, and experience. There is no shadow, no shame, no repression that is not capable of being penetrated by witnessing. The witness is not judgemental in any way, but practical self-observation without judgment.
Witnessing is a whole-body experience. Witnessing is not an intellectual exercise. Quite to the contrary. We actually witness our experience with the whole body, allowing ourselves to feel the reverberations of the sensations throughout the whole physical emotional organism. Indeed, when the witness is finely honed, we can sometimes feel the reverberation of experience throughout all of the five sheaths.
Witness consciousness is always present at least in its potential form in every human being at every moment. The witness is the essence of the divine, awake, already enlightened nature. We don’t have to create the witness. This quality of consciousness needs only to be recognized, evoked, claimes, and cultivated.
The witness is the part of the already awake mind that is capable of standing completely still, even in the center of the whirlwind of sensations, thoughts, feelings, fantasies- even in serious mental and physical illness. From the witness, we can stand back and objectively observe our experience even as we’re having that experience. Even as the witness stands as the still point at the center of the storm, though, this part of our consciousness can fully dance with life, directly experiencing all sensation, even as it remains completely still, anchored and grounded.
The witness goes everywhere. The witness is connected to the whole quantum field of mind and matter. Witness consciousness stands outside time and space, living in the eternal now of the unmanifest realms, while also penetrating time and space. Witness consciousness is the quality of the self-aware universe. It is the intelligence, the “sight without a seer”, that saturates the whole quantum field of mind and matter.
The Five Koshas
As we begin to explore the koshas below, you’ll notice that they map out an inward journey, from the periphery of the body and arriving at the very essence of who you are.
1. Physical Body
We begin at the outermost layer, the physical body (organs, bones, muscle tissue, and skin), known as the annamaya kosha in yoga. Anna means “food” or “physical matter” and maya means “made of.” We are the most familiar with our annamaya kosha—the experience of our physical body in yoga.
2. Energy Body
Sheathed by the physical layer, the energetic body is called the pranamaya kosha and is composed of the body’s subtle life-force energy prana, also known as chi in Traditional Chinese Medicine.
The animating force behind every atom, cell, organ, and body system, prana coordinates every physiological activity, from the pumping of the heart to the elimination of waste.
Imbalances or blocks within this energetic body greatly affect the overall function of the physical body. What’s more, the body’s subtle energy greatly influences the state of the mind, which is the next layer of self. Prana is closely related to the breath—you receive prana upon the air you breathe.
When the breath is shallow and sporadic, your prana is also erratic. Unstable pranic energy causes the mind to become agitated and the body’s various systems irregular. Smooth out the breath, and prana becomes more stable, the mind gets calmer, and all the body’s living systems function more optimally.
If you’re interested in working with your vital energy, yogic breathing practices known as pranayama exercises, increase and regulate prana in the body.
3. Mental Body
The third layer corresponds to your mind, emotions, and nervous system—expressed as streams of thoughts, feelings, and sensations, and is known as the manomaya kosha, from manas, which means “mind” or “thought processes.”
Many of us have an overactive manomaya kosha that wears on our nervous system and plays out through our emotions. Yoga helps calm our minds and soothe our nervous systems, allowing you to recover from the effects of stress and fatigue on your third body.
Your mental body is also where we experience the five senses. It’s the sheath that allows us to receive, absorb, and process input from the world around us, governing our automatic responses and reflexes. When you go on autopilot and zone out, you’re operating from your manomaya kosha.
4. Wisdom Body
You begin working with the first three bodies as soon as you start practicing yoga.
Coordinating your breath with your movement brings you present on your mat—synchronizing your physical, energetic, and mental bodies. However, the next layer, your wisdom body, takes a little more internal awareness that is cultivated over time.
Beneath the constant stream of thoughts, feelings, and sensations (the processing, thinking, and reactive mind), lies an inner knowing and higher intelligence in your wisdom body, which is called the vijnanamaya kosha, from vijnana, or “intellect.”
Your intuition, conscience, and the reflective aspects of your consciousness are all part of your wisdom body. Here, we develop our awareness and deeper insight into the nature of who we are and how we relate to the world around us.
The practice of yoga helps quiet the mental body so that our wisdom body can be heard and begin to guide us. One simple way to start working with your vijnanamaya kosha is to simply pay attention to any sensations or pulsations taking place internally throughout your practice.
For example, after a Bridge Pose or backbend, once you’re back down on your mat, close your eyes, feel the sensations taking place on the inside, and become aware of your heartbeat.
5. Bliss Body
The deepest layer of our being is the core of our existence, known as the anandamaya kosha, from ananda, which means “bliss.” Often referred to as your highest self or spirit, your bliss body is where you experience the unbounded freedom, expanse, and joyousness of your true nature.
Connection with this kosha is like coming home. There’s a sense of peace and connectedness during which time ceases to exist and your consciousness expands beyond the limits of your body.
While most people aren’t even aware of this aspect of their being, chances are you’ve experienced glimpses of your anandamaya kosha throughout your life.
Holding your newborn child or looking into your lover’s eyes, you may have dropped from conscious awareness and into your radiant bliss body. You might have also touched upon it while losing yourself in a painting, poem, film, story, or song, or perhaps while giving a speech or performance.
I dip in and out of my bliss body when I’m teaching yoga. Without having to involve my thinking mind, wisdom, directions, and insights pour out of me and fifteen minutes can go by in the blink of an eye.
Yogis discovered a third way, a path that does not split the world into two pain and pleasure, right and wrong, good and bad, sacred and profane. They discovered a path that does not require us to suppress the energy of desire, but allows, us to fully experience it. Patanjali writes of his third way as the development of a kind of “impartially in the spheres of pleasure and pain, virtue and vice.”
The fifteenth-century scripture called Vedantasara The Essence of the Doctrines of Vedanta describes the practice of titiksa, a cultivation of an attitude of impartiality, patients, and endurance towards the pairs of opposites, a practice this scripture honors as one of the six treasures of life.
This impartiality and neutrality towards polarities referred to by some modern yogis, as choiceless awareness. Choiceless awareness is the third way because when we are practicing it, we do not push away any sensation. We do not believe the pairs of opposites can be separated. Rather, we develop our capacity to experience the way things are, to live each moment fully, to receive the whole light and sounds show.
In a sense, we do not choose against any experience, we choose for all of it.
We will see that in order to get our basic needs to take care of as a child, we had to learn precisely how much not to see certain aspects of reality, we commit to not seeing the truth as a way of coping.
Many spiritual seekers participate to some degree in this strategy. Much of a spiritual practice then becomes, in fact, a flight from clear seeing and its implications. Harvard psychologist Jack Engler gives us a very helpful list of some of the ways in which AVOIDANCE of the real can motivate our so-called spiritual paths. For some of us, spirituality can be unconsciously driven by:
A quest for perfection and invulnerability. We may feel especially prone to the quest for perfection if we feel all too imperfect, or if we have been badly hurt and don’t want to ever have to feel that vulnerable again.
A fear of Individuation. We may be anxious about stepping out into the world, assuming responsibility for ourselves and our life, shrinking back from competition, comparisons, or achievement.
Avoidance of Commitment and Accountability. We might conveniently relabel this avoidance spiritual “detachment” or, in New Age terminology, “just going with the flow”.
A Fear of Intimacy and Social Involvement. It’s striking how many of us drawn to spiritual life have a history of difficulties with intimacy and closeness in relationships, or disappointments in love, and how being in a spiritual community allows us to feel a sense of belonging without resolving these underlying fears.
An Inability to Grieve and Mourn Important Losses. All the spiritual teachings and practices about “letting go”, “renunciation” or “detachment” can actually substitute for a genuine facing of personal grief and loss, and the painful feelings associated with it.
An Avoidance of Feelings. So many drawn to spiritual practice have difficulty with strong emotions like anger, sadness, and disappointment. Spiritual traditions label these as kleshas and as unwholesome, and so we may take this to mean we shouldn’t feel them, and then we feel guilty or unspiritual if we do. Sometimes the experience of pleasure and sexuality seems to be even more problematic for the people drawn to spiritual practice.