FUNDING for URBAN FARMING for Community & Food Sovereignty

Ministry Of Consciousness in partnership with the Urban Farm Project is looking for gifts, resources, donations to build community awareness around gardening and food production systems. To help homeless, nutritional deficiencies and food sovereignty. To build for each community. Though what we are asking for is not going to go far, we are looking for a long term supporter for this project as well. We do not have a current page on the website for this project yet. We plan to travel to where ever is needed to create community urban farms where they are most needed. We would like to buy up old buildings and renovate them and clean them up for community urban farms. Once the project is completed we would hand over the title and land to the community to caretake, we would have educated them to manage beforehand it over. We need trucks, trailers, equipment, and funds to create these systems. Thank you for your time, If you have any questions about what we are doing, our education in such work, please email Bridgette at the 775.624.7862 no texting

Ministry Of Consciousness in partnership with the Urban Farm Project fieldwork includes educating, building, fixing, restore large scale land. For habitat, food productions serving humans, animals, insects, water, soil, and plants. Funding helps with getting us around to locations that people cannot afford to pay for our services, tools and other items that may be needed. We are looking for long term funding and support. Thank you. For more information please contact Bridgette @ or 775.624.7862 no texting

Ministry Of Consciousness needs the USD to buy used transportation for the outreach or if someone out there has one that can be donated. Cars with hatches, trucks with camper shells and vans all welcome.  Our Vans transmission went out three months ago and we had to donate it. Thank you. If you need more information please contact Bridgette the Minister Of Health @ or 775.624.7862

Treading Fear, Like Treading Water

Today I was thinking about lessons you have and how points in your life they converge. Coming together as pieces of a puzzle in an odd seemingly non congruous way. in that moment you know on the bare bones the pieces were all the same part of a greater lesson given like instruction here and there till the construct took form.

I was raised a fighter, warrior, i was also raised to be quiet, suffer in silence and to never bother others because in the end it was my life and I was ultimately responsible for It and no one was ever coming to save me.

I was not a water born baby, but I was taught to swim by my god mother starting at 6 months old. I was put in every swim program throughout the years of my life, swimming most likely was a place I excelled. I spent ever moment of every summer in water until I was fished out by an adult or I was to exhausted. Every summer I spent swimming, fishing and rafting. I have the fondest summer memories on the King’s River which had level 5 rapids. My Uncles had a white water raft and we would spend whole days on it. I think the first summer I was allowed in the boat on that river was like age 5. I was a swimmer, I was never scared.

It is what it is and It will be what It will be, teachings left to me from my native teacher Bavado who passed in June 2016. What he taught me is that no matter what you do, things are going to be they way they are. The only control you have over It is showing up, being sober, confronting, pray a lot and if possible creating remedies and solutions in the present moment.

One of the first lesson’s I ever learned in swimming and rescue programs is that you can live a lot longer if you float in deep water till you can be saved, if you tread water you will become exhausted and die. This is a similar lesson from instructors and attendants on the air plane/s: when crashing please put your own mask on and then help others or not just brace for impact.

Why does our will over ride facts our minds know? Our will to have what we want or needed kicks in and fight, kick, tread and struggle to stay “AFLOAT”.!?!

I have been treading water since 2006, in attempt to stay economically afloat. It has only been in recent weeks that old lessons are converging on my exhausted mind, body, emotions and spirit. I am so exhausted that Thank Creator I literally cannot do anything but float now. My current conversations, thoughts and where I am at with people I know and love and it is scaring the crap out of them. I know this has more to do about them than me. It hits up against their fear, loss of control, pretty much every fear they have and then add in the ingredient of what will other people think.

The secret  ingredient that makes everything fail is that “what will other people think” this causes us to be insane and do things that in our right minds we would never consider and under other conditions would never make sense to do anyway.

Since 2005 I have been insane and doing things that do not make sense like emotional feeling how unfair it while feeling like I am being forced to tread water to stay “AFLOAT”. One of my other favorite insight is: “the definition of insanity, you keep doing the same things over and over and expect a different result”.  Once you become shamanically sober you can see that It was you all along who was forcing you to do anything, try watching that movie fight club

The Hopi’s also have a brilliant spiritual understanding: When the war inside of you stops, the war outside of you will stop. This does not mean the world outside of you will change, but how you come to the outside world,  hop you participate with the outside world, what state: mentally, emotionally, physically and energetically matters when interacting with the outside world.

Going back to my 30’s. Right before I found out that I had brain cancer at age 32, I had a dream. My father that raised me to be a good human had died a few years earlier. During this period between his physical death and his spirit departure from this realm he continued to worry about me, help me and guide me. I did not understand the dream I am going to share until some deep shamanic work I did with a group of people sometime around 2010 in LA. Today, I have finally, finally, finally put together the message the dream was trying to get through to me.

The dream was about water. Just like in my childhood my father and I were at this place we camped almost every weekend at, a place called Pyramid Lake here in Northern Nevada. The dream was so real, like being a kid again, one of the games he would play with us kids in the water was human launch, he would stand us on his shoulders under water and then use his legs with forces to launch us far out of the water, I would fly in the air and crashing back into the lake. In the dream he was rocket launching me, I was flying in the air high and cannon balling back into the water. There was no speaking in this dream, just playing in the water.  The dream was a blessed vacation from the real world, taking me to a place of joy and exhilaration.

There was a moment where my father in the dream grabbed me with both of his hands he pushed me to the bottom of the lake, this was not part of our play time and in the past I have had battles with beings, forces who appear to be one thing and then another, fear, I was terrified, I was going to die, I was being drowned by my father. I fought back, he over powered me under water and I could feel the air leaving my lungs and I knew that I was drowning and going to die.  I could not over power my father. In that moment of defeat I went limp and allowed him to hold me to the bottom and as the last air left my lungs everything became clear, so clear I could see the last bubbles going up, the water was very still and clear, I remembering thinking wow the lake is so clear and blue.  My head held sideways onto the bottom of the lake I could see the sand and how neat, arranged the sand was in ripples.

The struggle and fight was over, I surrender to it and everything became so clear. I was in awe of the beauty I felt deeply with the water and just surrendered completely to death.

I woke up sitting in bed. I cried for hours about my father killing me missing most of the point of my fathers help with what was to come in my life. I know now he was trying to help me in my future in the face of the worst things to just surrender.

However I am sad to report that I did not get the message, and I had become an expert in everything staying “Afloat”. After years battling the waves of the stormy ocean of my life since 2006, I finally, finally, finally was forced to surrender, let go, stop treading and float. No matter I am okay, to be honest surviving for years by constant movement, trying to out think tomorrow, treading just really on every level did not fix anything and I can say absolutely sure has made everything worse.

Many of the people I know are scared for me, scares them of my uncertainty and quality of life, but at some point you have to just stop because treading to survive to stay “AFLOAT” is insanity and does not make sense if you play on living long.

Remember the Buddha choose poverty, homelessness and starvation along with other intense lessons to become fully enlightened, we should not fear what IT IS and should float effortlessly through it instead. Until spirit lands us on the distant shore and we become effortlessly lived.

I am becoming lived, and floating is one but many ways for me to effortlessly allow water and the spirits to guide me to exactly where I belong.


Huge Shout Out to the Water Elemental’s that came to me over a year ago and again I deeply regret pushing you all away and not listening, I a wait your return with a full Heart!

To: Ralph and Marsha Ring, may we allow the highest order of being lived in perfection!

The Right Fit Effortlessly

In my dream last night night I was shown my feet in a pair of shoes much more like open heel and toe Birkenstock that were too big for my feet.

They were a yellow tan color. These shoes were about 3 sizes bigger than my feet visually in the dream.

After I woke I began to contemplate about the dream and though someone might think that the dream was talking about “a need to fill bigger shoes” or “bigger shoes to fill” for me because of my personal issues, background and what I know for sure about my life and self.  The dream was leading me towards how I have survived, making things work by creating from nothing and living with far less.

I am extremely greatful for these gifts and lessons working with all the Native teachers I have there was also a deeper lesson I had to learn to do the work I would in the future, which has become now. The ego, self importance, expectations, entitlements die and cannot grow in environments where there is nothing, not enough, survival and it the best breeding ground for medicine, magic and foundations of alchemy.

You either free yourself from the world you see and follow another path or parts of you will crack and break attempting to live like others in this world.

I have friend/s that laughingly make statements such as “you could live off tree bark”, “you can make something from nothing” and while these are good traits to have in this world, I know many people who could not continue to thrive as I have with nothing and would most likely end their lives in the events that I have faced during my 51 years.

In the dream they were showing me, using visuals there was no language which activates the right hemisphere to use a deeper understanding and connect us to our sub conscious mind. During which I discovered that I have always just made things work, whether events, items, or people that have come into my life they were never exactly what I wanted or needed but were no less showed up.

I learned to adapt, work with what is, making a life and utilize what was there. In the dream it was showing me, uncovering and preparing me for something else. Understanding that their is a time for the work I have spent my life doing, living more in poverty, like my family, making it work, adapting it and pulling a Jesus in making nothing into more. This is the basis of the alchemist work. Though many in this world would call it living in “poverty consciousness”.

I believe that this dream is signally a new timeline for me, that now having done the work, I can move towards having exactly what I want, what fits, what can be, closer defining who I am and what I am mirroring and reflecting effortlessly.

I can dream bigger,  have and fill my own shoes that fit perfectly. The days of filling other people’s shoes are over. This is not about prosperity or abundance this is about feeling more confident in who and what I am, knowing that I am the trained, knowing alchemist and being able to wait if necessary for the right, exact, good, perfect event, thing or item to come on my path effortlessly.


Two of my favorite statements that were made by Lynn Andrews in her 3rd book of the original trilogy. I read her book around 1987 and these to statements have stuck with me through my life.

All Things Exist By Agreement

A Life Predicted By Time


The AIM in Stalking..

“[…] We have to understand here that the true Negative Realm agenda is to “eat consciousness.” So, this actually prevents an overt “take-over” in literal, physical terms. If an “invasion” was detected, this would mean that the veil would be lifted and all would see the “man behind the curtain” and would be disgusted and turn away. Just as in the “Wizard of Oz,” those Ruby Slippers have to be obtained VERY CAREFULLY!

Gathering the essence is an art of great subtlety! The “negative alien plan” is, in its purest sense, STALKING.

The aim of Stalking is to create a completely controlled artificial environment composed of thoroughly predictable human behaviors – made predictable because they have been programmed to respond to cues of conditioning.

[…] For centuries these programming signals have been being set up – either because of time travel capabilities, or because of actual historical presence. Various prophets or religious leaders have been influenced to preach, or teach or prophesy philosophies designed to lay a foundation for later take-over – possibly in our present time.

[…] A lot of people think that the “alien invasion scenario” is a ruse concocted by the government to create the impression that there is a forming “threat,” thereby enabling the institution of a New World Order. But, this idea is based on a misrepresentation of the process just described.

The important thing to remember is this: there is NOT a “unified conspiratorial activity” going on here in the hierarchy of government. The “divide and conquer” effect is also manifest at this level and suits the alien purposes to a “T.

Such activity at ALL levels is consistent with their program of STALKING, in which confusion and cross-purpose prevents a clear perception on the part of the Stalkies Yet, at some deep level there may be a direct conspiratorial interaction between the “secret government” and the negative aliens… but it is unlikely that any name of those involved would be recognized by anyone, no matter how “in the know” regarding the subject.

These “secret superiors” are just that: SECRET. Any organization you can name, or about which you are AWARE, are merely “outer circles.

What is the designed objective of this STALKING? The effect of Stalking is sort of like stampeding a herd of cattle. Bit by bit, they are consolidated into a “negative mode” which consists of the idea of “us vs them.” Even though, on the surface, it may seem that this “mode” is positive or STO (Service to Others), (i.e. save the world because it is “wrong” or flawed, or blighted with original sin or whatever) the very fact that it is formed in the “dominator” mode of perceiving salvation “outside,” means that it can more easily be “taken over” body, mind and soul at a level that is “unseen and unseeable.” In other words: Satan CAN and most often DOES appear as an Angel of Light!

[…] It is in this understanding that we find our way out of the trap. It isn’t easy, but it is a way. The primary object of Negative stalking is to persuade through strongly influenced, but not robotic, behavior patterns, the Free Choice of the targeted CONSCIOUSNESS to align with negative higher-density existence. Because, in the Long Run, the object is the “eating” of functioning units of consciousness by the negative hierarchy, with Free Will intact! It is not good food otherwise!”

– Michael Topper

They gave US their MIND!

“In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist.

A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it.

They gave us their mind!…Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them.”

Don Juan Matus