“Insecurity and anxiety also motivate us to form and join groups.
Being a part of a group relieves us of anxiety because it makes us feel like we are not the only ones who feel insecure about a particular thing. We often form groups with individuals who have similar insecurities. Having similar [unconscious] insecurities cause us to have similar desires from the perspective of the internal conflict model…Thus, the more insecure and anxious we are, the more motivated we are to form and maintain our own groups.”
– Toru Sato, “The Ever-Transcending Spirit: The Psychology of Human Relationships, Consciousness, and Development”
“The more importance someone attaches to a determination of her identity, the more she divides herself from the unbounded reality of wholeness.
A narrowing attachment to identity creates strife not just within an individual, but in society at large. In his book ‘Identity and Violence’, Amartya Sen argues that the more narrowly people ‘identify’ themselves by race, gender, status, religion, heritage or nationality, the more prone they will be to committing violence.
That makes sense when we understand ‘objective’ identifications as top-down phenomena: ideas about how one should be are imposed onto the self. This is already a form of violence in which idea dominates and silences being. When someone adopts a categorical standard for how a human should be, it becomes all too easy to turn that violence against others – even friends, neighbors or family members. I believe that the most dangerous people are those who feel their ideas about the Present more keenly than they feel the Present itself.”
~ Philip Shepherd
I am trying to finish the rest of the courses for my farming certifications. I have been going to school for about 12 years total and I am at the finish line. I am specializing in Biodynamic Methods of Farming. I could use some help to get my course completed by getting is paid for first. I am posting some links that can help give you some further information about my directions. If you have any questions please contact me. Thank You, Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff
My main project will be getting a huge piece of land and building Biodynamic full-scale farm, off-grid and then education Combat Veterans into the new Earth Keepers and Farmers in the USA! I just need to finish the education I started!
Today March 5, 2020, I needed to come up with the $300 for the class that starts today. I can jump in on the next class on this course if I have the tuition. The next big deadline is March 16, 2020, I need $500 to start that course on time which is extremely important! In April the rest of the asking will be needed of $800. I know this is last minute but I tried every avenue to come up with the money and just did not happen.
First Session is the Assessment Session by Zoom Video Call. This session is to assess the individual’s background, environments, and issues they are having a mental, emotional, physical or energetic toll. After the session completes all information will be considered and an assessment will be sent by email. Assessment should be received no longer than 5 working days after the assessment session completes. It will cover an array of considerations and recommendations from nutrition supplement support, diet, practices, energy healing, life coaching and whatever pertains to the forward movement in the area most needed by the individual. The Assessment Session is $170
The second Session usually three weeks after the first one, gives the individual time to make the recommended changes necessary, then start the next phase. This session is also online and all session from the second one and on are $155
After the second session is completed then we have a private discussion about the next steps, each person is unique. Everyone has there own complexities.
Abdominal Cramps: Fear. Stopping the process.
Abscess: Fermenting thoughts over hurts, slights, and revenge.
Accidents: Inability to speak up for the self. Rebellion against authority. Belief in violence.
Aches: Longing for love. Longing to be held.
Acne: Not accepting the self. Dislike of the self.
Addictions: Running from the self. Fear. Not knowing how to love self.
Adrenal Problems: Defeatism. No longer caring for the self. Anxiety.
Alcoholism: Feeling of futility, guilt, inadequacy. Self-rejection.
Allergies: Denying your own power.
Alzheimer’s Disease: Refusal to deal with the world as it is. Hopelessness and helplessness. Anger.
Amenorrhea: Not wanting to be a woman. Dislike of the self.
Anemia: “Yes-but” attitude. Lack of joy. Fear of life. Not feeling good enough.
Ankle: Inflexibility and guilt. Ankles represent the ability to receive pleasure.
Anorexia: Denying the self-life. Extreme fear, self-hatred, and rejection.
Anxiety: Not trusting the flow and the process of life.
Apathy: Resistance to feeling. Deadening of the self. Fear.
Appetite, Excessive: Fear. Needing protection. Judging the emotions.
Arm: Represents the capacity and ability to hold the experiences of life.
Arteries: Carry the joy of life.
Arthritic Fingers: A desire to punish. Blame. Feeling victimized.
Arthritis: Feeling unloved. Criticism, resentment. – Rheumatoid Arthritis: Feeling victimized. Lack of love. Chronic bitterness. Resentment. Deep criticism of authority. Feeling very put upon.
Asthma: Smother love. Inability to breathe for one’s self. Feeling stifled. Suppressed crying.
Athlete’s Foot: Frustration at not being accepted. Inability to move forward with ease.
Back Issues: Represents the support of life. Back Problems: – Rounded shoulders: Carrying the burdens of life. Helpless and hopeless. – Lower Back Pain: Fear of money or lack of financial support. – Mid-Back Pain: Guilt. Stuck in all that stuff back there. “Get off my back!” – Upper Back Pain: Lack of emotional support. Feeling unloved. Holding back love. – Back Curvature: The inability to flow with the support of life. Fear and trying to hold on to old ideas. Not trusting life. Lack of integrity. No courage of convictions.
Bad Breath: Anger and revenge thoughts. Experiences backing up.
Balance, Loss of: Scattered thinking. Not centered.
Baldness: Fear. Tension. Trying to control everything.
Bedwetting: Fear of parent, usually the father.
Belching: Fear. Gulping life too quickly.
Bell’s Palsy: Extreme control over anger. Unwillingness to express feelings.
Bladder Problems: Anxiety. Holding on to old ideas. Fear of letting go. Being “pissed off”.
Bleeding: Joy running out. Anger.
Blisters: Resistance. Lack of emotional protection.
Blood Pressure: – High: Longstanding emotional problem not solved. – Low: Lack of love as a child. Defeatism.
Body Odor: Fear. Dislike of the self. Fear of others.
Bones: Represent the structure of the universe. – Bone marrow: Represents deepest beliefs about the self. How you support and care for yourself. – Breaks: Rebelling against authority.
Brain: Represents the computer, the switchboard. – Tumor: Incorrect computerized beliefs. Stubborn. Refusing to change old patterns.
Breast: Represents mothering and nurturing and nourishment. – Cysts, Lumps: A refusal to nourish the self. Putting everyone else first. Over mothering. Overprotection. Overbearing attitudes.
Breath: Represents the ability to take in life. – Breathing Problems: Fear. Not trusting the process of life. Getting stuck in childhood. Fear of taking in life fully. – Bronchitis: Inflamed family environment. Arguments and yelling.
Bruises: The little bumps in life. Self-punishment.
Bulimia: Hopeless terror. A frantic stuffing and purging of self-hatred.
Burns: Anger. Burning up. Incensed.
Bursitis: Repressed anger. Wanting to hit someone.
Calluses: Hardened concepts and ideas. Fear solidified.
Cancer: Deep hurt. Longstanding resentment. Deep secret or grief eating away at the self. Carrying hatreds.
Candida: Feeling very scattered. Lots of frustration and anger. Demanding and untrusting in relationships. Great takers.
Canker Sores: Festering words held back by the lips. Blame.
Carpal Tunnel Syndrome: Anger and frustration at life’s seeming injustices.
Cataracts: Inability to see ahead with joy. Dark future.
Cellulite: Stored anger and self-punishment.
Cerebral Palsy: A need to unite the family in an action of love.
Chills: Mental contraction, pulling away and in. Desire to retreat.
Cholesterol: Clogging the channels of joy. Fear of accepting joy.
Circulation: Represents the ability to feel and express the emotions in positive ways.
Colds: Too much going on at once. Mental confusion, disorder. Small hurts.
Colic: Mental irritation, impatience, annoyance in the surroundings.
Colitis: Insecurity. Represents the ease of letting go of that which is over.
Coma: Fear. Escaping something or someone.
Conjunctivitis: Anger and frustration at what you are looking at in life.
Constipation: Incomplete release. Holding on to garbage of the past. Guilt over the past. Sometimes stinginess.
Corns: Hardened areas of thought – stubborn holding on to the pain of the past.
Coughs: A desire to bark at the world. “Listen to me!”
Cramps: Tension. Fear. Gripping, holding on.
Crohn’s Disease: Fear. Worry. Not feeling good enough.
Crying: Tears are the river of life, shed in joy as well as in sadness and fear.
Cuts: Punishment for not following your own rules.
Cysts: Running the old painful movie. Nursing hurts. False growth.
Cystic Fibrosis: A thick belief that life won’t work for you. “Poor me.”
Deafness: Rejection, stubbornness, isolation. What don’t you want to hear? “Don’t bother me.”
Depression: Anger you feel you do not have a right to have. Hopelessness.
Diabetes: Longing for what might have been. A great need to control. Deep sorrow. No sweetness left.
Diarrhea: Fear. Rejection. Running off.
Dizziness: Flighty, scattered thinking. A refusal to look.
Dry eyes: Angry eyes. Refusing to see with love. Would rather die than forgive. Being spiteful.
Dysmenorrhea: Anger at the self. Hatred of the body or of women.
Ear: Represents the capacity to hear. – Ache: Anger. Not wanting to hear. Too much turmoil. Household arguing.
Eczema: Breath-taking antagonism. Mental eruptions.
Edema: What or who won’t you let go of?
Elbow: Represents changing directions and accepting new experiences.
Emphysema: Fear of taking in life. Not worthy of living.
Endometriosis: Insecurity, disappointment, and frustration. Replacing self-love with sugar. Blamers.
Epilepsy: Sense of persecution. Rejection of life. A feeling of great struggle. Self-violence.
Epstein-Barr Virus: Pushing beyond one’s limits. Fear of not being good enough. Draining all inner support. Stress.
Eye: Represents the capacity to see clearly past, present, future. – Astigmatism: “I” trouble. Fear of really seeing the self. – Hyperopia: Fear of the present. – Myopia: Fear of the future.
Face: Represents what we show the world.
Fainting: Fear. Can’t cope. Blacking out.
Fat or Weight issues: Oversensitivity. Often represents fear and shows a need for protection. Fear may be a cover for hidden anger and a resistance to forgive. Running away from feelings. Insecurity, self-rejection and seeking fulfillment. – Arms: Anger at being denied, love. – Belly: Anger at being denied nourishment. – Hips: Lumps of stubborn anger at the parents. – Thighs: Packed childhood anger. Often rage at the father.
Fatigue: Resistance, boredom. Lack of love for what one does.
Feet: Represent our understanding – of ourselves, of life, of others. – Foot Problems: Fear of the future and of not stepping forward in life.
Fever: Anger. Burning up.
Fibroid Tumors: Nursing a hurt from a partner. A blow to the feminine ego.
Fingers: Represent the details of life. – Thumb: Represents intellect and worry. – Index: Represents ego and fear. – Middle: Represents anger and sexuality. – Ring: Represents unions and grief. – Little: Represents the family and pretending.
Food Poisoning: Allowing others to take control. Feeling defenseless.
Frigidity: Fear. Denial of pleasure. A belief that sex is bad. Insensitive partners. Fear of father.
Fungus: Stagnating beliefs. Refusing to release the past. Letting the past rule today.
Gallstones: Bitterness. Hard thoughts. Condemning. Pride.
Gas: Gripping. Fear. Undigested ideas.
Gastritis: Prolonged uncertainty. A feeling of doom.
Genitals: Represent the masculine and feminine principles. Worry about not being good enough.
Gland Problems: Represent holding stations. Self-staring activity. Holding yourself back.
Gout: The need to dominate. Impatience, anger.
Glaucoma: Stony unforgiveness. Pressure from longstanding hurts. Overwhelmed by it all.
Gray Hair: Stress. A belief in pressure and strain.
Growths: Nursing those old hurts. Building resentments.
Gum Problems: Inability to back up decisions. Indecisive about life.
Hands: Hold and handle. Clutch and grip. Grasping and letting go. Caressing. Pinching. All ways of dealing with experiences.
Hay Fever: Emotional congestion. Fear of the calendar. A belief in persecution. Guilt.
Headaches: Invalidating the self. Self-criticism. Fear.
Heart: Represents the center of love and security. – Heart Attack: Squeezing all the joy out of the heart in favor of money or position. Feeling alone and scared. “I’m not good enough. I don’t do enough. I’ll never make it.” – Heart Problems: Longstanding emotional problems. Lack of joy. Hardening of the heart. Belief in strain and stress.
Heartburn: Fear. Fear. Fear. Clutching Fear.
Hemorrhoids: Fear of deadlines. The anger of the past. Afraid to let go. Feeling burdened.
Hepatitis: Resistance to change. Fear, anger, hatred. The liver is the seat of anger and rage.
Hernia: Ruptured relationships. Strain, burdens, incorrect creative expression.
Herpes Genitalis: Mass belief in sexual guilt and the need for punishment. Public shame. Belief in a punishing God. Rejection of the genitals.
Herpes Simplex: Bitter words left unspoken.
Hip: Carries the body in perfect balance. A major thrust in moving forward. Fear of going forward in major decisions. Nothing to move forward to.
Hives: Small, hidden fears. Mountains out of molehills.
Hodgkin’s Disease: Blame and a tremendous fear of not being good enough. A frantic race to prove one’s self until the blood has no substance left to support itself. The joy of life is forgotten in the race of acceptance.
Hyperactivity: Fear. Feeling pressured and frantic.
Hyperventilation: Fear. Resisting change. Not trusting the process.
Hypoglycemia: Overwhelmed by the burdens in life.
Impotence: Sexual pressure, tension, guilt. Social beliefs. Spite against a previous mate. Fear of mother.
Incontinence: Emotional overflow. Years of controlling emotions.
Indigestion: Gut-level fear, dread, anxiety. Griping and grunting.
Infection: Irritation, anger, annoyance.
Inflammation: Fear. Seeing red. Inflamed thinking. Anger and frustration about conditions you are looking at in your life.
Influenza: Response to mass negativity and beliefs. Fear. Belief in statistics.
Ingrown Toenail: Worry and guilt about your right to move forward.
Injuries: Anger at the self. Feeling guilty.
Insanity: Fleeing from the family. Escapism, withdrawal. Violent separation from life.
Insomnia: Fear. Not trusting the process of life. Guilt.
Intestines: Represent assimilation and absorption.
Itching: Desires that go against the grain. Unsatisfied. Remorse. Itching to get out or getaway.
Jaundice: Internal and external prejudice. Unbalanced reason.
Jaw Problems: Anger. Resentment. A desire for revenge.
Kidney Problems: Criticism, disappointment, failure. Shame. Reacting like a child.
Kidney Stones: Lumps of undissolved anger.
Knee: Represents pride and ego. Stubborn ego and pride. Inability to bend. Fear. Inflexibility. Won’t give in.
Laryngitis: So mad you can’t speak. Fear of speaking up. Resentment of authority.
Left Side of Body: Represents receptivity, taking in, feminine energy, women, the mother.
Leg: Carry us forward in life.
Liver: Seat of anger and primitive emotions. Chronic complaining. Justifying fault-finding to deceive yourself. Feeling bad.
Lockjaw: Anger. A desire to control. A refusal to express feelings.
Lump in the Throat: Fear. Not trusting the process of life.
Lung: The ability to take in life. Depression. Grief. Not feeling worthy of living life fully.
Lupus: A giving up. Better to die than stand up for one’s self. Anger and punishment.
Lymph Problems: A warning that the mind needs to be recentered on the essentials of life. Love and joy.
Malaria: Out of balance with nature and with life.
Menopause Problems: Fear of no longer being wanted. Fear of aging. Self-rejection. Not feeling good enough.
Menstrual Problems: Rejection of one’s femininity. Guilt, fear. A belief that the genitals are sinful or dirty.
Migraine Headaches: Dislike of being driven. Resisting the flow of life. Sexual fears.
Miscarriage: Fear of the future. Inappropriate timing.
Mononucleosis: Anger at not receiving love and appreciation. No longer caring for the self.
Motion Sickness: Fear. Bondage. Feeling of being trapped.
Mouth: Represents taking in of new ideas and nourishment. Set opinions. Closed mind. Incapacity to take in new ideas.
Multiple Sclerosis: Mental hardness, hard-heartedness, iron will, inflexibility.
Muscles: Resistance to new experiences. Muscles represent our ability to move in life.
Muscular Dystrophy: “It’s not worth growing up.”
Nails: Represent protection. – Nail Biting: Frustration. Eating away at the self. Spite of a parent.
Narcolepsy: Can’t cope. Extreme fear. Wanting to get away from it all. Not wanting to be here.
Nausea: Fear. Rejecting an idea or experience.
Neck: Represents flexibility. The ability to see what’s back there. Refusing to see other sides of a question. Stubbornness, inflexibility. Unbending stubbornness.
Nephritis: Overreaction to disappointment and failure.
Nerves: Represent communication. Receptive reporters.
Nervous Breakdown: Self-centeredness. Jamming the channels of communication.
Nervousness: Fear, anxiety, struggle, rushing. Not trusting the process of life.
Neuralgia: Punishment for guilt. Anguish over communication.
Nodules: Resentment and frustration and hurt ego over career.
Nose: Represents self-recognition. – Nose Bleeds: A need for recognition. Feeling unnoticed. Crying for love. – Runny Nose: Asking for help. Inner crying. – Stuffy Nose: Not recognizing the self-worth.
Numbness: Withholding love and consideration. Going dead mentally.
Osteomyelitis: Anger and frustration at the very structure of life. Feeling unsupported.
Osteoporosis: Feeling there is no support left in life. Mental pressures and tightness. Muscles can’t stretch. Loss of mental mobility.
Ovaries: Represent points of creation. Creativity.
Pain: Guilt. Guilt always seeks punishment.
Paralysis: Paralysing thoughts. Getting stuck. Terror leading to escape from a situation or person.
Pancreas: Represents the sweetness of life.
Pancreatitis: Rejection. Anger and frustration because life seems to have lost its sweetness.
Parasites: Giving power to others, letting them take over and life off of you.
Parkinson’s Disease: Fear and an intense desire to control everything and everyone.
Peptic Ulcer: Fear. A belief that you are not good enough. Anxious to please.
Phlebitis: Anger and frustration. Blaming others for the limitation and lack of joy in life.
Pimples: Small outbursts of anger.
Pituitary Gland: Represents the control center.
Pneumonia: Desperate. Tired of life. Emotional wounds are not allowed to heal.
Poison Ivy: Allergy Feeling defenseless and open to attack.
Polio: Paralysing jealousy. A desire to stop someone.
Premenstrual Syndrome: Allowing confusion to reign. Giving power to outside influences. Rejection of the feminine processes.
Prostate: Represents the masculine principle. Mental fears weaken the masculinity. Giving up. Sexual pressure and guilt. Belief in aging.
Psoriasis: Fear of being hurt. Deadening the senses of the self. Refusing to accept responsibility for our own feelings.
Rash: Irritation over delays. Immature way to get attention.
Right Side of Body: Giving out, letting go, masculine energy, men, the father.
Ringworm: Allowing others to get under your skin. Not feeling good enough or clean enough.
Scabies: Infected thinking. Allowing others to get under your skin.
Sciatica: Being hypocritical. Fear of money and of the future.
Scleroderma: Protecting the self from life. Not trusting yourself to be there and to take care of yourself.
Scratches: Feeling life tears at you, that life is a ripoff.
Senility: Returning to the so-called safety of childhood. Demanding care and attention. A form of control of those around you. Escapism.
Shin: Represents the standards of life. Breaking down ideals.
Shingles: Waiting for the other shoe to drop. Fear and tension. Too sensitive.
Sinus Problems: Irritation to one person, someone close.
Skin: Protects our individuality. Anxiety, fear. Old, buried things. I am being threatened.
Slipped Disc: Feeling totally unsupported by life. Indecisive.
Snoring: Stubborn refusal to let go of old patterns.
Solar Plexus: Gut reactions. Center of our intuitive power.
Sores: Unexpressed anger that settles in.
Spleen: Obsessions. Being obsessed with things.
Sprains: Anger and resistance. Not wanting to move in a certain direction in life.
Sterility: Fear and resistance to the process of life or not needing to go through the parenting experience.
Stiffness: Rigid, stiff thinking.
Stomach: Holds nourishment. Digests ideas. Dread. Fear of the new. Inability to assimilate the new.
Stroke: Giving up. Resistance. Rather die than change. Rejection of life.
Stuttering: Insecurity. Lack of self-expression. Not being allowed to cry.
Sty: Looking at life through angry eyes. Angry at someone.
Suicidal thoughts: See life only in black and white. Refusal to see another way out.
Teeth: Represent decisions. – Teeth Problems: Longstanding indecisiveness. Inability to break down ideas for analysis and decisions. – Root Canal: Can’t bite into anything anymore. Root beliefs being destroyed. – Impacted Wisdom Teeth: Not giving yourself mental space to create a firm foundation.
Throat: Avenue of expression. Channel of creativity. – Throat Problems: The inability to speak up for one’s self. Swallowed anger. Stifled creativity. Refusal to change. – Sore throat: Holding in angry words. Feeling unable to express the self.
Thrush: Anger over making the wrong decisions.
Thymus Gland: Feeling attacked by life. They are out to get me.
Thyroid Gland: Humiliation. I never get to do what I want to do. When is it going to be my turn? – Hyperthyroid: Rage at being left out.
Tics, Twitches: Fear. A feeling of being watched by others.
Tinnitus or Ringing in the Ears: Refusal to listen. Not hearing the inner voice. Stubbornness.
Toes: Represent the minor details of the future.
Tongue: Represents the ability to taste the pleasures of life with joy.
Tonsillitis: Fear. Repressed emotions. Stifled creativity.
Tuberculosis: Wasting away from selfishness. Possessive. Cruel thoughts. Revenge.
Urinary infections: Pissed off, usually at the opposite sex or a lover. Blaming others.
Uterus: Represents the home of creativity.
Vaginitis: Anger at a mate. Sexual guilt. Punishing the self.
Varicose Veins: Standing in a situation you hate. Discouragement. Feeling over-worked and overburdened.
Vitiligo: Feeling completely outside of things. Not belonging. Not one of the group.
Vomiting: Violent rejection of ideas. Fear of the new.
Warts: Little expressions of hate. Belief in ugliness. – Plantar Warts: Anger at the very basis of your understanding. Spreading frustration about the future.
Wrist: Represents movement and ease.
I have been thinking about writing this blog for the last several days.
I wanted to write about a story that is true, a fact that I experienced in my life first-hand account.
I am now 51 this account takes place during an apprenticeship I had for about a year with a Lakota Sioux Medicine woman who worked on me and others, I was about 23 to 24 during this time.
I am not going to ramble on, maybe on the next blog about my teacher and her being kidnapped off her rez when she was a late teen. NASA saw her talents, abilities and her rez was in inner conflict and she felt that she never really fit in since her skin was much lighter than the people in her tribe. It was not hard for NASA to offer her a job which she could then leave and create her own new life, years later she would find out this is not the exact case and eventually, she would have to escape them which she did. That is a whole other story I might write about later.
My teacher had out of this world abilities to fix people, not heal people but fix them. Her abilities were increase and developed by NASA by putting machines, healing and new frontier health machines in her space, teaching her how to use them on the NASA people who were sick. Many of these people were the top scientist that was part of project paperclip. These scientists were exposed to high levels of all kinds of nasties that give you cancers of epic standards during them working on who knows what, multidimensional technologies, energy, time travel along those lines. She could without use of machines actually reach into their fields and remove anything that was no apart of the original genetic structures such as tumors, cancers and other things I will not mention here. Literally in seconds curing them of whatever the problem was.
She escapes and is in hiding in the mountains of northern USA. She after a period of time makes contact with trustworthy people in a telepathic sort of way. Traveling the dreaming worlds I call it and then communicating in a telepathic way put images into their heads that they will in the near future think are visions or a da-za-view experience. When she showed up in their physical world they would accept her without question, get healed by her and be loyal to keep her secrets and allow her spaces to work on other people. Please note: that my teacher wanted to educate people, heal them and help them to free themselves from the system starting with medicine and the healing arts. If she had the ability to do this, then can you imagine what kind of things the govs of the world use to mind control people in a bad way. That most of what people see, hear, think about, dream about is not even real at all.
In comes Bridgette myself. About age 23 I had a friend who had moved up north to Coeur ‘D Alene area. He said I should consider moving up there. I was raised in Nevada and like most people here I suspect I would have never left, I would have had a local system of beliefs and would have never expanded aspects of myself if I had not moved. I felt like I was possessed during that time to move up north. I had never had people support me in anything however they were all supporting me in moving from Reno, Nevada to Idaho. Even willing to pack my stuff and drive it up there with me. I know know that My Teacher had traveled the dreaming plains and found me and was moving me one step at a time towards her using thought or mind control systems in myself and others.
Once I move to Idaho within a month I was meeting extremely awake people who were involved with my teacher. They all had suffered terrible events or illnesses and my teacher healed them. I was moving from the locations I originally moved to when I arrived in Idaho to another location with a roommate and it turned out that she was having a session with my teacher and that is how I met my teacher. My roommate set up an appointment for me with her. It was a very close-knit community surrounding my teacher one in which she created.
My teacher had other people she had trained to help her with her sessions, some of the sessions would last around 3 hours, especially the first one you had with her. She would travel down ever rabbit hole in you and out of you, clean them up, cure, fix, rebuild, restore that when you walked out you were the highest grade version of you. During my first session was when I learned many things about myself and why my teacher was so interested in me and why I became the only apprentice she ever had.
One, she saw that I had also been attempted kidnapped by NASA when I was about 19.
Two, She and I can from the same star place. Though she said that she had never met another living person from this star place there had been a few in the history of the planet who came here that was not living.
Three I had abilities like hers, however, mine were particularly dormant and would she said surpass hers.
I was not easy, she was a hard teacher on me, she had to be, she had to break me free from the systems, like Neo I suspect in the Matrix, What I have found since the time I studied with this teacher is that she was right and the movie the Matirx was spot on. Mostly about the people will defend their enslavers, their enslavement and what I learned from my teacher down to their biology they will defend it. It is embedding in our layers so much so you cannot even really believe your thoughts, they are not your own.
There are many things that I have alluded to and not always been direct in what I know and what I understand. No one wants to hear or see the truth and they will defend the lie, their lies, it is what it is. I have spent almost 30 years working on ways to wake people up, sadly that even a miracle you perform for someone is not even enough to hold them conscious very long.
I would like to leave you with this story.
When I first started working with my teacher I could not stay awake, energy shifts would force me to pass out, blackout. It is a very shaman type of work that was happening with her. The mind likes to shut down, turn off, even systems of the body can completely meltdown in the process of becoming fully conscious. There were many days I would come to help her work on people over that year and she would open the door, use a type of testing she did with her fingers and then either let me in or ask me to leave with no explanation. She knew that turning me away was going to destroy me at the start but would force me to wake up and become aware of my emotional systems that we controlled through PTSD events in my life, patterning, repetitive daily structures and on autopilot derived emotional responses that keep me in a looping state. She was forcing me by not giving me approval, not explaining my behaniors to me and cutting me off which cause embarrassment and insecurity, she would not feed the auto-responses of my emotional body. Over time with me staying in it we would get my emotional body to come closer to my physical body and unify it with my other bodies. Making me a unified field of my own with my own systems all together. It felt like the worst abuse I have ever weathered in my life. I had to do the work, I would cray before turning away from the door of the location where she was working on people for that day after I was asked to leave. I would by the time I got to my car cry hysterically, my car would run badly on the way back home since my energy fields were literally frying and frying the physical world systems as well. After I would spend days in bed in emotional distress without sleep, I started to see that the reason I was being asked to leave had a lot to do with what I was engaged with at the time of showing up. I started to see patterns of drama that I was feeding though I was not conscious of it. Once I could put these things together I could stop the inner looping process and thus from that point in was always let in to assist.
As I am writing this the tv turned on its self!
When I first started helping with sessions I was given the task of note-taking, waiting for my teacher to talk and then writing these things down over three hours. This helps the patient to know what had happened during, many time they were put into another state which they were not connected to the body of the physical world, this was necessary so that the autopilot of the peoples programming did not stop or create some kind of emotional nonsense during the sessions. Once I worked through all my emotional blocks and could stay fully conscious during and after all the sessions then I was directly trained in my teachers to work, taken places, show things, given tools and enhanced my abilities that once I left her teaching and she did after a year kick me out to go do my own work.
Once I started helping her to work on people she would then discuss with me during and after about the person and how they will operate, what their future will produce, how many times they come back which lead to me being able to read thoughts, energies and see the patterns people were in and under.
After one such session the person who was a woman, she had I think like pancreas cancer in a tumor form and she had come to my teacher after hearing about her great abilities. We worked on many of her structures, patterns that cross 64 layers in this world and out into other worlds, along with DNA, RNA, genetics, cells, spinal alignments, everything you can imagine. Her sessions were lock, stock, and barrel, nothing was left unturned! At the end of the session, our grounder brought the woman back into her body into the room. We sat her up and my teacher told her that we had done everything in all the places and spaces to get rid of her current cancer, but there was just one more thing left to be done. My teacher took her hand into the woman’s energy field and grabbed the tumor and removed it and tossed it into an energy jar which after sessions were over we would energetically incinerate.
My teacher told the woman she should go to the doctor the next day and get tested and she will find that cancer will be gone and never come back. The woman did what she said and the tests came back that the cancer was gone but the doctor kept wanting to run tests of all kinds to get that cancer back on the radar, there was no way in his view cancer could vanish. Which is another thing about making “things real” for you in the system, proof of something by physical world sets things in stone and makes it much harder and in some cases impossible for you to get out of the controls of your energy, your power, your thoughts by using beliefs, biological systems, feelings, economic and a whole host of structures in this reality you think is real, live by the sword die by “their sword”.
The next time I saw my teacher she wanted me to have a discussion about the woman with cancer, the session that was done, the proof the woman got about it being gone and what was going to transpire in the future of the woman’s health. Basically what my teacher said is that people cannot have miracles, they also cannot accept them as real and so their fractured personalities will arise to control their reality. She said because of the doctors freaked out response to the fact her cancer was gone will aid in the future and what the woman conjures for her self and thus return to us again for yet another miracle and this will be a pattern until the woman finally dies, because she cannot free her mind, body, energy or emotions from the Matrix systems, if she could she might live forever in the same body. Sure enough, six months later the woman was back and she now had lupus. This woman had created another disease that was equally deadly by the physical world systems standards. Again my teacher fixed the systems that had created it in her and then removed lupus from her biological system. My teacher decided after that to no work on the woman anymore, because every time she would come back in the future it would be something worse and worse until she finally died.
What I want to leave you here with is: that this Matrix is not just controlling your mind, you energy, your thoughts, feelings, economically but because of the embedding in all of those parts of you, it controls you biology and when you are about to break free of some of the control on whatever level it appears it will cause a very serious catastrophic biologically related event to scare you right back into the prison and a health treatment that will further punish you for trying to shift out.
Update: a follower sent me this today after my blog sent them down a rabbit hole. This man is saying things very similar in a medical way that my blog was basically explaining. Enjoy~
Vaccines that are used for such things as flu and virus-like herpes or shingles, spread the virus for up to 7 to 10 days after vaccines have been given.
The vaccine virus sheds during the period after received, which means that the viral load is shedding from the body and all over households in bathrooms, kitchens, clothing, beds by urine, fecal matter, saliva, sweat, coughing, sneezing, mucus and snot and makes contact where ever the body goes then can be picked up by another person or animal.
Not only does this shedding go on in humans with vaccines but your vaccinated pets as well. Remember that the western medical system does not do animal medicine and they will not ever be able to properly diagnose you in the event you contract an animal vaccinated virus from your or someone else’s pets.
People and Pets after vaccination should be quarantined away from other people and animals for no less than 7 days and no more than 10 days. This means you should not be attending work, go out in public at all after such vaccinations as you are spreading the virus that was given to you, though you may show no symptoms yourself. You should not be letting your dog in the house after vaccination or taking it out in public either.
Remember that your vet does not have proper testing for certain human viruses that they can test your domestic animal for a virus that you may have given to your animal from shedding your vaccine. I have know of dogs getting a chickenpox type response weeks after the animal was exposed to his owner who got the vaccine. Unless it is a known virus in the human medial or vet medical they will not test for it and will not be able to properly treat you or your animals in the event that a virus through vaccine shedding was spread.
I have a client that got the kennel cough from the vaccine her dog was given and she was tested at the human doctor and they could never officially find anything, she was violently ill for weeks, she still has immune system issues and her lungs have been permanently damaged and will never be the same.
The mainstream lists virus in with the pesticide as a way of killing something that is undesirable, you can contract such things, stopping the use of pesticides and types of herbicides along with vaccinations can go a long way to improving health for yourself, your family, your animals, and your environments.
Stopping your local, state and federal agencies from spraying such things into our environments and finding natural ways to control such vectors as well, will stop the mutations of viruses and vectors.
Listing virus as pesticides by mainstream standards would mean that vaccines are under and included in the pesticide category as well!!!
Do the Math, it is not that hard to do. Educate yourself, they will never openly tell you the truth. You have to take responsibility for yourself and your spaces and places!
In general, a pesticide is a chemical[vague] or biological agent (such as a virus, bacterium, or fungus) that deters, incapacitates, kills, or otherwise discourages pests.
It’s helpful to realize that this body that we have, this very body that is sitting here right now in this room, this very body that perhaps aches, and this mind that we have at this very moment, are exactly what we need to be fully human, fully awake and fully alive.