Expansion at all costs to Break Free

This week starting a few days before Christmas has been a really difficult one for me. In the future, I will be disclosing the exact events that lead up to now and the players. For now, I will put the circumstances playing out.

In two short weeks, I will again be forced to move back into my older 2004 van and live on the streets and right now it has been snowing for weeks and we are having one of the coldest winters on record. In September I finally got onto my feet. I got an office, did advertising, was building clients, created a bunch of local classes for late winter and early spring. All based on getting into a travel trailer on property owned by people who I will disclose in the future once I am off the land.

I finally was going to start creating income, building so that I could in the future get a real place to live and thrive. Last week I found out that I have to move off the land, I have been all used up and the verbal, written agreement on their end voided. They know that they are tossing out a human being who works their ass off into the dead of winter here in Northern Nevada. More on this in the future.

Whenever I am in some kind of event or process I move to do my own inner work first. I look at my side in such things. Not to judge who is at fault but the underlying energies that simulate the events. Then I look at the participants and the overall way the events and choices were made.

I am not sure if I have an overwhelming amount of people attracted to me that are users, evildoers, people compliant in others choices and help to carry them out, thief and people who generally just do not give a fuck about other people even though they pretend to, the pretenders who live in their reality that is not even based in this reality. Or am I living in a world that 90 percent of the population is just dark, evil, sociopaths living among us good people?

All my years of shamanic work leads me to phrases that were left in the books of Carlos Castaneda about his Native teacher Don Juan Matus about our minds:

“Every one of us human beings has two minds. One is totally ours, and it is like a faint voice that always brings us order, directness, purpose. The other mind is a foreign installation. It brings us conflict, self-assertion, doubts, hopelessness.” Don Juan Matus

“For the present, it will be sufficient that I repeat to you what I have said before about our two minds. One is our true mind, the product of all our life experiences, the one that rarely speaks because it has been defeated and relegated to obscurity. The other, the mind we use daily for everything we do, is a foreign installation.” Don Juan Matus

“Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed, and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal.”

“But how can they do this, don Juan?” I asked, somehow angered further by what he was saying. “Do they whisper all that in our ears while we are asleep?”

“No, they don’t do it that way. That’s idiotic!” don Juan said, smiling. “They are infinitely more efficient and organized than that. In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver—stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now.

“I know that even though you have never suffered hunger,” he went on, “you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”

“It’s not that I can’t accept all this at face value, don Juan,” I said. “I could, but there’s something so odious about it that it actually repels me. It forces me to take a contradictory stand. If it’s true that they eat us, how do they do it?”

Don Juan had a broad smile on his face. He was as pleased as punch. He explained that sorcerers see infant human beings as strange, luminous balls of energy, covered from the top to the bottom with a glowing coat, something like a plastic cover that is adjusted tightly over their cocoon of energy. He said that that glowing coat of awareness was what the predators consumed, and that when a human being reached adulthood, all that was left of that glowing coat of awareness was a narrow fringe that went from the ground to the top of the toes. That fringe permitted mankind to continue living, but only barely.

As if I had been in a dream, I heard don Juan Matus explaining that to his knowledge, man was the only species that had the glowing coat of awareness outside that luminous cocoon. Therefore, he became easy prey for an awareness of a different order, such as the heavy awareness of the predator.

He then made the most damaging statement he had made so far. He said that this narrow fringe of awareness was the epicenter of self-reflection, where man was irremediably caught. By playing on our self-reflection, which is the only point of awareness left to us, the predators create flares of awareness that they proceed to consume in a ruthless, predatory fashion.

They give us inane problems that force those flares of awareness to rise, and in this manner, they keep us alive in order for them to be fed with the energetic flare of our pseudo concerns.

There must have been something to what don Juan was saying, which was so devastating to me that at that point I actually got sick to my stomach.

After a moment’s pause, long enough for me to recover, I asked don Juan: “But why is it that the sorcerers of ancient Mexico and all sorcerers today, although they see the predators, don’t do anything about it?”

“There’s nothing that you and I can do about it,” don Juan said in a grave, sad voice. “All we can do is discipline ourselves to the point where they will not touch us. How can you ask your fellow men to go through those rigors of discipline? They’ll laugh and make fun of you, and the more aggressive ones will beat the shit out of you. And not so much because they don’t believe it. Down in the depths of every human being, there’s an ancestral, visceral knowledge about the predators’ existence.” Don Juan Matus

AND.. here it was amongst the words of Don Juan Matus what the truth really is about the foreign mind and why people act the way they do, because they are about to be found out and people like myself find them out and why we are dealt with so aggressively and violently: “The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now.” People are not in control of their own minds and they will lie, use, steal, discredit, destroy, and get rid of those who get close to the truth, the discovery of their: shadow self, preditor, fear of what they have done is exposed and more labels about this other self who we allow to run our lives and we knee jerk react to which I like the term that also Don Juan Matus had a name for which was the petty tyrant. If you conform your life into materialism which Rudolph Steiner talks about you will become this petty tyrant that Don Juan Matus talks about.

As I work on my own expansion of soul, spirit something I know is clear for me, I will never submit to lies or cover up lies and bad deeds. My expansion currently is about no submission no matter what might be done to me, all we really have is our own integrity. My expansion requires me to stand my ground, put on notice the oppression’er that has who constantly destroys, discredits, uses, abuses, lies about others in an attempt to cover up their own secrets and stay ahead of the uncovering of such.

I might need to move away from description fo the petty tyrant to calling them the Pretenders who distract and project a life they do not have and are really not living to play out their own inner mind theater. When you come within a certain proximity of their theater you are given by them a role to play out and if you do they reward you, if you refuse to play the role and expose it then you are with all their manipulation and control, even utilizing the other actors in their play against you. Just like in the movie the matrix, you get noticed and agent Smith works on getting rid of you in a direct, lethal and violent manner.

I would like to end this blog with a request to those that are awake. I would really like a nice, warm, amazing, stable, kind place in which to live after January 15, 2022. I would like this place to be a place where people who are like-minded would like me to open a practice to help others get well. If you have such a place and you can assist me in getting there with my retired amazing therapy dog let me know. this place is where the new reality and paradigm is already got a foundation and we can start building something amazing for this world.


PS This is not just about money, donations though they are always accepted gratefully! This is about me finding the right and perfect place in which to flower, spread my wings and benefit people, animals, environments, and the mother earth in ways I have not been able to. This is about safety, space, rest, peace, contemplation that I need in order to build for those who have suffered to give them a place to go, but a place I can regenerate them, release them from the memory bondage held in the body from the petty tyrants, preditors, and pretenders. Link for contact: https://coe-llc.com/contact-coe-moc-rrs-bridgenit/

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Our Reality EXPANDING in Real TIME


What is your personal punishment choice?

Who and what do you blame when you cannot do what you want, when, where, why, and how?

When backed into a corner do you fight, rage, fetal, act out, punish yourself, get so depressed commit suicide?

What if I gave you another way of looking at it???

What if you could not find a solution to whatever it is that has you backed into a corner because there wasn’t one?

What if there wasn’t an answer because it had not happened in your reality before?

What if the Universe, God, the Creator… needed you to get backed up in this corner so they could design a solution, come to a resolution, and help you to create the way out? The right and the perfect way for you….

What if it is not personal at all, but in the evolution of man, humans and this world these things, events had to happen to create solutions, bringing them into this reality?

Kind of like on-demand, real-time, on-the-spot creation!

What if you just have to stay out of your head and wait for instructions from the universe in the next move on your chessboard…

That the corner was the end of that line and the next part was not created because it was not needed until that moment? Cause/ Reaction: Creation

Now take this into the collective consciousness of all of us together, When we all get backed up into the corner, we cause a global tsunami of creation and solutions coming into our reality that never existed before now.

It is not personal, it is evolution, co-creation, and development in real-time, on the spot as we go.


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How DEEPLY Must we use Detachment…

Several mornings ago I woke up thinking about the crucifixion of Christ. the whole visual of a man nailed on a cross, hanging there in severe pain, beaten, bleeding, literally tortured to death. I use to look at this as the symbol of the evildoers reminding us about the levels they will go to if they want. That this symbol that is in every church on the walls was a reminder to me everytime I saw it the being on this cross we are mind-controlled into thinking that he is going to save us, me. Visually look at what these evil madmen have done to him, real or made up.

There is also this probing sentence that I have always remembered since my summers of Pentecostal events with my Grandmother who was a full-scale prophet and exorcist.

We seem to separate what we are told and read with the real image. This is why we cannot grasp and are even in shock when the horrors of this world some of us actually touch and are like the images of Jesus and tortured in this way.

The sentence that is another such eminder to me, something that Jesus was reported to have said in the red section of most modern bible points out: “Continue to work out your own SALVATION with Fear and Trembling”

I am on my own and it is clear what kind of work I am doing here in this world.

On that morning several days ago, I became really clear about in this world that our detachment has to go so deep that we could detach in any event so that I would never feel or respond mentally, emotionally, or spiritually to harm while we are being physically abused, assaulted, beaten, even having our flesh ripped off and dragged naked over gravel roads until we cannot stand. The highest order of torture that someone like Jesus could have, would have suffered. This is where I think the aim should be for our detachment and expectation of this being possible in this world to us.

The question is how do we dive that deep down in order to release, prepare for our attachment to the violence, brutality, hate, rage that is done to us? Me, I lean towards ancient shamanism teachings I have learned over my life, I also embrace other teachings on such innerstandings. The answer may be different to all of us and at certain times along our path, we may need to use different types of shoes “meaning” spiritual teachings.

What I know for sure is that everywhere I have been in this world has shown my symbolically what this world is about, what it will do to me, how it will do it to me, meaning while controlling the narrative that it is a world that is fair, nice and other nonsense.

This year in March 2021 is when I came out on my radio show about being human trafficking. I spent most of my life wrapping my head around it. I have also suffered many other ways over my life that I will not bring up.

Can we be in total peace at all times, in a state of connectedness even when the most horrific things happen? Can we be fully conscious during? The even bigger question is can I detach so deeply that I can be fully conscious in the midst of the most violent thing that could happen to me living in the everyday world and not in a cave?


Steiner believed that humans once participated more fully in spiritual processes of the world through a dreamlike consciousness but had since become restricted by their attachment to material things. The renewed perception of spiritual things required training the human consciousness to rise above attention to the matter. The ability to achieve this goal by an exercise of the intellect is theoretically innate in everyone.

In Buddhist and Hindu religious texts the opposite concept is expressed as upādāna, translated as “attachment”. Attachment, that is the inability to practice or embrace detachment, is viewed as the main obstacle towards a serene and fulfilled life.





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Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff is a Traditional Osteopath with almost 30 years of experience and continued education. She specializes in Structural & Energy Medicine, Nutrition, and Herbalism. Bridgette is also an international registered Medical Intuitive. She attended Rudolph Steiner College to learn Biodynamics, Spiritual Sciences, Anthroposophic Medicine, and apprentice on farms, as well as permaculture, stays. Bridgette works with and on humans, animals, and the environment/s in person and online. In the past, Bridgette spent summers in different locations across the USA doing soil restoration, land regeneration, and small to large farm build/s educating as she works with the landowners. She is also a lifetime practitioner of Shamanism and comes from the bloodlines of the shaman, medicine people, herbalists, healers, clairvoyants, prophets, and exorcists. Bridgette understands that real medicine and nutrition start with recovering and restoring the soil, these processes will also heal the land, the air, the water, the people, and all beings living on Earth. The second half of her life is spent healing the earth and educating those who are interested. Bridgette teaches classes in person and online in shamanism, seeds, beings, forces, soil, animal health, people health, animal health, environmental health, nutrition, pain management, and more.  For a private session by appointment with Bridgette in person or by zoom contact her: 

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ETS, NASA, Pentagon & Hybrids

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Bible: Dragons & Serpents: Consciousness

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Profound State of Awareness

The most profound state of awareness comes from being devoted to your present circumstances, absorbing the sorrows and joys of others, so that you may see yourself within them, which in actuality is you. Lujan Matus

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Clear Seeing

Since Vedic times in ancient India, yogis have been called seers. It was accepted wisdom that yogic sages could penetrate the space-time continuum with their highly developed awareness. they could “see” the subtle bodies of the human beings, or the planet, and could literally peer into unmanifested realms. When  Viveka ascends the sacred mountain, he finds himself in the sphere of Shiva, the seer. Here he encounters the powerful consciousness of yogic seers. which is also the archetypal masculine-Transcendent awareness merged with the formless One of Brahman.

Shiva (in the form of Rudra) instructs Viveka in the refinement of the capacities of the mind.  Viveka discovers, in deep states of meditation and yoga, how the normal human capacity for attention can be developed to the limits of its extraordinary dimensions. He discovers that ordinary human attention, which is discursive, intermittent, and passive, can be trained to become active, one-pointed, and autonomous. Through honing the powers of attention, ordinary mind can be transformed, revealing completely new and astonishing powers and structures of mind.

This is the mind that is capable of seeing through the kleshas and the four erroneous beliefs. This transformed mind is capable of penetrating not only the unconscious but also the realm of realities that lie hidden behind the phenomenal world. The mind then becomes the instrument for penetrating into the essence of things, for taking possession of, or assimulating, the real. “then the wisdom of the yogi knows all things as they are.”

In the final stages of practice, even the mind’s awareness of itself- or self-consciousness – disappears. All subject-object separation vanishes. and the subject becomes absorbed in the object. All that exists at this point is the object as illuminated by and revealed to consciousness. And then, finally, all that exists is pure consciousness.

Stephen Cope

Doshas, Koshas, Bandhas and Kleshas




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Yogic teaching says that we have to learn gradually to tolerate sensations and feelings in the physical body, and thoughts in the mind, without reacting to them by either holding or pushing away. Craving and aversion (the third and fourth kleshas) roil the body-mind and create a kind of white noise in the system that obscures seeing clearly. For this reason, the development of a compassionate. grounded, centered, continuous, and abiding sense of self is at the core of yogic practice.

Steadied Wisdom: He whose mind is not affected in sorrow and is free from desire in pleasure and who is without attachment, fear, or anger – he is called a sage of “steadied insight”.

Stephen Cope

Doshas, Koshas, Bandhas and Kleshas


Yoga and the Koshas – the layers of being


the 5 kleshas – the roots of pain & suffering


Breath Meditation




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Moth & Path of Knowledge

My current run-in with Moth reminded me of the earlier works of Castaneda.

The picture I took from an old mining house, the perspective of how large it looked on the window, and the landscape behind it really brought on the memories of the Moth Carlos had battled with early on. Just like in the Bible of many of the characters battling and fighting angels, I often think that may what we see in the mind’s filters, projections that keep our mind’s beliefs in check. One person has an altered reality and battles a giant moth, another an angel, another an alien. what if the outside force we are all battling is the same but our minds change the picture of what we are seeing for its own benefit, control system?

From the Wheel of Time with attached PDF book

This series of specially selected quotations were gathered from the first eight books that I wrote about the world of the shamans of ancient Mexico. The quotations were taken directly from the explanations given to me as an anthropologist by my teacher and mentor don Juan Matus, a Yaqui
Indian shaman from Mexico. He belonged to a lineage of shamans that traced its origins all the way back to the shamans who lived in Mexico in ancient times. In the most effective manner he could afford, don Juan Matus ushered me into his World, which was, naturally, the world of those shamans of antiquity. Don Juan was, therefore, in a key position. He knew about the existence of another realm of reality, a realm which was neither illusory nor the
product of outbursts of fantasy. For don Juan and the rest of his shaman-companions – there were fifteen of them – the world of the shamans of antiquity was as real and as pragmatic as anything could be.
This work started as a very simple attempt to collect a series of vignettes, sayings, and ideas from the lore of those shamans that would be interesting to read and think about. But once the work was in progress, an unforeseeable twist of direction took place: I realized that the quotations by
themselves were imbued with an extraordinary impetus. They revealed a covert train of thought that had never been evident to me before. They were pointing out the direction that don Juan’s explanations had taken over the thirteen years in which he guided me as an apprentice.
Better than any type of conceptualization, the quotations revealed an unsuspected and unwavering line of action that don Juan had followed in order to promote and facilitate my entrance into his world. It became something beyond speculation to me that if don Juan had followed that line, this
must have also been the way in which his own teacher had propelled him into the world of shamans.
Don Juan Matus’s line of action was his intentional attempt to pull me into what he said was another cognitive system. By cognitive system, he meant the standard definition of cognition: “the processes responsible for the awareness of everyday life, processes which include memory, experience, perception, and the expert use of any given syntax.” Don Juan’s claim was that the
shamans of ancient Mexico had indeed a different cognitive system than the average man’s.


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